Plan for the day you are hit by a bus

I’m gonna getcha getcha getcha

 

In the US workforce, there’s an expression, “Plan for the day you are hit by a bus.” It means that a smart employer, and an understanding employee would know better than to make one person “indispensable”. I use quotes because none of us are indispensable. The best we can hope for is to make ourselves valuable.

So, that day when you are hit by the metaphorical bus, what happens? You are busy performing triage on the situation, meanwhile, life continues on….

All of the sudden, it is May. I was in the nursing home/rehab/I mostly called it hospital when writing about it… almost exactly TWO MONTHS. Right now, I feel as if I would no longer choose inpatient rehab. Yes, there should be a dash in that word, but the way I have it is much more appropriate.

I was treated in what is basically an old folks home. I am not that old of a folk. But, I’ve mentioned before, our healthcare works in mysterious ways. I don’t think I would make the same decision now, but understand, I was asked the question while heavily medicated post-surgery and in a hospital bed, and I did not want to burden my family.

But, on to the present… I have bills near due and possibly past due, my favorite plant is nearly gone, my rice milk sat in the fridge since March…. I’m just really overwhelmed. I decided to stop all my meds bc I am tired of it, but I am wondering if I should go back on one. But, the thing is, it is normal and natural to feel overwhelmed in a situation like this, yes? So, I don’t know.

When we last left my life, I was trying to find a job. The only interesting thing that happened on this front was that I filled out a questionnaire… I had to borrow an outdated machine to do it, but of course, I was grateful. I haven’t heard anything since then, so onward.

I am supposed to start outpatient PT in a couple of weeks. Right now, in this moment, I don’t feel like going. I am sick of Drs and hospitals and everything having to do with them.

My life in the old folks home consisted of me going to music classes to prepare for the yearly talent show. I also did arts and crafts. That part of life was sweet. I made friends and influenced no one. People said such wonderful things to me when I was leaving- that I was beautiful and kind hearted and that they will miss talking to me. I will miss this.

I am totally overwhelmed because I don’t have tons of help. GF helps, but wants me, quite rightly, to be independent. This is hard, because when we are weak, we tend to overburden those we love. I think my friends and family are sick of me being sick. GF says I have been feeling sorry for myself. I do. And I feel jealous of people who seem to have their lives together more than I do. Friends and family who are married with kids, living in houses…

So, it’s a tough day, internet friends, but your posts are a great distraction…

 

Easter at the ankle fixing facility

20170416-194928.jpg

This is a bunny I made from random stuff in my room. Easter is kinda like this bunny in that I am trying to make something out of nothing.

I slept all day, almost literally, if it weren’t for the meal interludes. The best meal today was the one I scraped together from gifts from the Girlfriend: canned ravioli, special vegan protein drink, and some fancy chocolate with fruit in it. I feel like Easter started with that meal.

I hid from the world and slept, which, if you are reasonably healthy here, aside from broken things, you can occasionally get away with. No one came to visit me on Easter, which sucks so much. There were visitors everywhere and just hearing them from behind my closed door was already too much to handle. I have this great neighbor who kept knocking, for what it’s worth, but I couldnt make it to the door in time and didnt want to try. As cool as dormmates can be, sometimes you just need to be alone, to contemplate your aloneness. What can I say, I’m a complicated being.

Girlfriend is away this Easter, as is often the case, so the gifts were from previous visits. The whatnow family was busy doing things that did not involve me, and to be fair, most were away as well. So, it’s not personal. It just feel that way sometimes, which makes weekends here the hardest for me. Then Sunday, I remember my ankle homework and take the time to complete it, or not, but usually I do.

I have a nearly completed Easter egg that needs finishing too. It actually looks pretty good half finished, so thats nice.

I have also watched so many food shows its unbelieveable. I cant wait until this thing is fixed.

More This & That

1 You’re gonna do WHAT with that?

I need a colonoscopy… and it’s coming up soon. I am mostly ok with it- not looking forward to it, but it will be nice to have the results.

 

2 MMM cookies!

I got “fat”. Please, let me call it what it is. Everyone irl has been sparing my feelings, which is nice, but a weight gain of about 15 lbs makes me feel fat. After everything I’ve been through, I’ve earned the right to just blurt it out, I think.

And why did I get fat? Well, I can now eat things I couldn’t eat before, and that is awesome. At least, that *may* be part of it. The other part is me trying to figure out the ins and outs of surgical menopause, which isn’t easy.

3

One of many exasperating, but not painful, symptoms.

But on the bright side, there’s this:

4

Yes, I am referencing actual dairy-based ice cream! I can eat it now! It turns out, the problems I experienced were due to my malfunctioning gallbladder! That’s pretty much all I’ve tried, but I’m looking forward to trying other former problem foods.

 

5

Yay! No more periods!

Boo! Surgical menopause is almost exactly like PMS (for me), but without the pain.

I’ve been cooking and eating, so there will be more of those types of posts on the way. But, I might not get to it until after the exam, for obvious reasons.

 

Take care! 🙂

Blueberry Muffins: First Try!

1

I’m slowly getting back into my groove. This is the first baking I’ve done in a while, excluding the boxed cake I mentioned a while back.

I’d never actually made blueberry muffins from scratch before. This recipe was quick and easy. I liked that. The muffin tops were flat because I’d tried a commenter’s suggestion to add sugar to the top mid-bake. Um, no. Don’t bother. I much rather would have tall muffins instead of the little bit of extra sugar. Live and learn.

Otherwise, the muffins are moist and chewy, and are now half-gone. So, it was a success. Next time, I’m thinking of trying a different recipe to see how they compare.

Enjoy! 🙂

Re-learning BBQ

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

While I’ve certainly eaten my share of BBQ, can you believe I’d not yet made myself any since starting this blog? It’s been ages since I BBQ’d- so long, in fact, that I’d forgotten how to do it. So, these are my first and second attempts at BBQ.

 

BBQ #1:

Quorn cutlets marinated in BBQ sauce

Baked Beans

Corn

 

BBQ #2:

Same as above, with pepper and tomato substituting for the corn.

 

Dessert:

Smores, obviously.

 

Leftovers:

So far, my favorite thing to do with the leftovers is dice the patties, place them in the beans, cover them with something microwave-safe, and heat them up together. Yum!

 

Observations:

I made some mistakes, but I’m learning.

  • I forgot to soak the corn before grilling. I will probably search for an actual recipe to maximize the flavor.
  • At first I didn’t realize you had to stir the beans.
  • The tomatoes did nothing on the grill. I would say “don’t bother”, but I’m pretty sure this failure was due to inexperience.
  • The grill took a very long time to heat up both times. It turned out that I needed to clean it. …Done.
  • While one of the first Quorn patties looks burnt at first glance, closer examination reveals that it was just a surface coating. Both sets tasted absolutely delicious. In fact, the patties from the first BBQ were actually better than those from the second!

Lowfat Indoor-Grilled Vegetables

1

Perfect for rainy summer days: This was so easy- and it was delicious!

1. I pre-heated the indoor grill (which involved all of plugging it in and waiting for the light to come on- it takes a few minutes).

2. Meanwhile, I sliced the zucchini using a knife & cutting board.

3. By that time, the grill was ready, and I put the zucchini slices on the grill.

4. While that was going, I de-stemmed the babybella mushrooms and filled them with low-fat feta cheese.

5. Some of the slices stuck to the top, so I was careful when prying them off. Then, I put the zucchini slices on a plate & spritzed with garlic-infused extra virgin olive oil.  I’d say it was about 4 minutes.

6. I put the mushroom caps face up on the grill. They took about 1-2 minutes, and required a vigilant eye. They also stuck to the top, which was more of a hassle/small mess because cheese was involved. I felt it was worth it.

7. I put the asparagus spears on next and they were fine. They also took about 4 minutes. No sticking issues. I spritzed them with the evoo also.

My intention was to halve the entire thing, but I ended up eating all of the mushrooms and halving the rest. So yummy!

Enjoy! 🙂

Back On the Water

1

After a long, hard, winter of gazing longingly at every body of water, trying to evoke seasonal change by sheer force of will, boating season has finally arrived.

One thing I like about leisurely kayaking is that I’ve been able to do it while my weight fluctuated up, down, and all around. The same goes for my fitness level. Basically, if I can fit inside and my health is reasonably good, I can do it. Plus, you know, fresh air!

Since this is more or less a food blog, I figured I’d share with you some of the snacks I’ve packed over the years. Please note, I did not receive compensation of any kind for mentioning the products I chose. Also, keep in mind that I am not an athlete, just a person who appreciates a good snack.

I’ve always been at least slightly aware of the need for protein- hence the cheese, but what I’ve found is that with experience, I naturally migrated over to healthier foods. I can tell you that it has made a difference. Weighing less at the start of the season this year has meant that so far, it’s been easier. In the past, I’ve gained weight nearly every summer. I’m really only 5 pounds lighter than I was at the start of last season- but I am about 10 pounds from what I was at the end of the season, and that is the difference that I felt at first blush.

It is easy to see the culprits early on- overly processed food and too much junk food. But, the trend continued even as late as last year. Perhaps I was drinking too many supplements. The ones I use are food-based, rather than amino acid based, from what I remember. I tried the other kind, but ugh, acid regurge!

I also remember being ravenously hungry after a run in the past. The first few years, I would chow down when I got home, even if I’d just eaten. Then, I tried Gatorade. Then, supplements. I’ve only gone a couple of times so far this season, but I wasn’t hungry afterwards. Some of this might have to do with the fact that I don’t stay out as long. These days, I’d rather do shorter trips and be able to go back again sooner, without needing a few days’ rest for my aching muscles. There’s something to be said for learning from experience.

Snack Time:

  • I started with cheese sandwiches on white bread with potato chips. I now bring a small insulated bag with an ice block. I did not do this originally. That’s a lot of melted cheese on squished bread.
  • I still pack a little cheese, but now it’s usually string cheese or these. It keeps better, but does still melt a little.
  • I always packed plenty of water and I still do. (This goes without saying, but never drink alcohol while boating. You never know when you might need your full coordination).
  • I used to pack junk food sometimes: Devil Dogs & those little snack containers of Cheez-Its/Oreos/Chips Ahoy (which I re-used).
  • The Gatorade years.
  • Some people pack nuts. I can’t do this and would prefer that others did not. Otherwise, don’t think I’m antisocial if I won’t linger around talking to you. In place of nuts, sunflower seeds are good.
  • Protein powders. There are really only a couple that are safe for me.
    • Apparently, this one is vegan. I forgot. It *does* act as a diuretic for me, just FYI. I used to drink this every time I came home. Now, I drink it whenever I need a protein boost- certain flavors only, due to allergies.
    • This is the brand of energy powder I use, but not all of the products are safe for me. I liked using them, and brought multiple pre-filled bottles in the past. But, these also are a major diuretic for me, which can be terribly inconvenient when you are out on the water. I’m out of them right now, but this season, I will probably cut back to one drink per run.
  • Chickpea snacks. Love them. Haven’t had them in a while. I am pretty sure these are the ones I used to get.
  • I love these snap pea and lentil crisps too, but don’t take them out because they are so fragile. A solid container would work fine for them, though.
  • I’m currently going through a Triscuit and hummus phase. This is extending into the rest of my life as well. Some hummus triggers a reaction, (I’m looking at you, Sabra!), some doesn’t.
    • These are handy little travel hummus packages. I like the garlic & red pepper flavors.
  • I’ve packed apples, but don’t really like dealing with leftover apple core. In the car, this wasn’t as big a deal. I’m sure it’s just a mental thing. My new thing is baby carrots, which also work with the hummus.

Hope this gives you some ideas! Enjoy your summer! 🙂

“Meatball” Sandwiches 2

1

It’s been a while, but I finally got around to making a second round of faux meatball sandwiches. Last time, I made a giant but delicious sandwich that is 2x to 3x what I am currently eating! This time, I wanted to dial it back a notch and save some for leftovers.

 

Changes, etc. :

I used the same falafel balls.

I used tomato sauce from the jar, but added garlic powder, basil, and oregano to it.

I used some mozzarella on the first couple of sandwiches.

To make the sandwiches a reasonable size, I used leftover burger buns. These weren’t especially healthy, but they worked. I also had some leftover tortillas, which kept the carbs down for subsequent portions.

 

Method:

1. You should know that the falafel balls taste best fried. Otherwise, they can be a little dry. But, I didn’t fry them because I am trying to cut back on the amount of fried food I eat. So, I plunked them in the sauce, as seen above, and heated the sauce on medium.

2. The falafel balls will break down when saturated and stirred. I didn’t care, but you might. I just wanted the taste, protein, and a little of the texture. I have not yet thought of a way around this, but it’s something you should be aware of.

3. Melted mozzarella helped with the dryness on the first day. The leftovers were more moist, since they had more time to marinate in the sauce. For the leftovers, I just microwaved a “meatball” and sauce with a slice of cheese (or not) on it. Then, I placed it and the crumbled “meat sauce” onto the roll/tortilla and ate it. Easy-peasy!

 

Enjoy! 🙂