Cooking and cleaning have not been high on my list of priorities, due to some health issues I’ve been experiencing.
While researching possible scenarios, I kept seeing things like, “Make sure you vacuum and do your laundry beforehand!”, “Clean the house ahead of time!”. It all read so terribly sexist to me- as if women don’t have anyone else to help them out. It also short-staffs the people in these women’s lives- either assuming they don’t help out regularly, or that they wouldn’t step up to help when needed.
Girlfriend does not live with me, I have a terrific support network, and I’m aware enough of gender bias to be writing about it, yet… I wanted to clean by myself. I attribute it to a confluence of spring fever, PMS, and worry. I hate to even mention the PMS, as it tends to scare people away, but it is definitely there. As for the worry, well, with the fixing of the problems comes the uncertainty of the afterwards, but a nice side effect of this is that physical activity can be great stress relief.
But, have you ever tried to do something you normally do when your body isn’t quite where it should be? It was almost laughable- tasks that took me half a day ended up taking an entire one. Things that had been no problem in the past had to be split up over the course of several days. Annoying, to say the least, but also eye-opening. One of the hardest things for me has been dealing with the wackiness of things not working like they used to, and being unable to predict when, exactly, that might happen. As a formerly somewhat active person, I have also berated myself for “being lazy”, enough though the weirdness I’m experiencing is enough to impress even the most experienced of doctors.
I’m sorry about being a little vague… but even writing this much is hard for me emotionally right now. It’s easier to tell you about the practical aspects, the more personal struggle of “why can’t I do this thing I’ve always done?”, which is ultimately more of an issue that readers actually can help with, anyway.